Recently i've learned how important it is, to take care of you're mental health. I always seem to forget at the end of the day. Having a bubble bath with candles or going for a jog, just seems like a waste of time. A time i could spend doing homework or even house work. Things always need to be done, and i always forget how important it is to take care of ME.
Lately, since living on my own, i've been at war with myself, just a constant feeling of never good enough and unable to make myself proud. Just really unhappy with who i am, and that is not a good feeling. My temper with my son has worn very thin in the last while and so, off too the doctors i went, and now I'm on a mood stabilizer, and i honestly can't tell you if they are working, I'm just on edge. The good thing about these pills is that it's supposed to help me gain weight.
James finds it cute, when he growls with frustration at me, and sure the first and second time was cute, but now its not so cute. He has the power and he knows it. Times for this mom too take it back.
Today, has been a struggle since i've woken up. Running away seems like the thing to do.
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